An Artist's Quest

Happy Birthday to Me!

This is my birthday breakfast.  Made lovingly this morning by my husband who knows my favorite is always Eggs Benedict!

This is my birthday breakfast. Made lovingly this morning by my husband who knows my favorite is always Eggs Benedict!

I am fiftyonederful today and glad to be alive.  Thanks to my family and friends and you dear followers who have joined me in this journey round and round the sun, I am truly blessed.

This morning I went for a walk with my dog Lucky pondering birth-days. I got to thinking about that newborn self – that pure, sweet, unhindered self.  As a baby we are a sweet elixir, a pure sip, a true soup of self, simple and raw flavor unlike any other fruit on any other day of our existence. As years pass and birthdays come and go experience and happenstance, effort and luck add to the mixture.  More sweetness when love comes like ripened fruit, spices both sizzling and subtle get sprinkled in with lose and lust and labor.  Sometimes ingredients are added in fistfuls and overwhelm the recipe, in times of great strife or loss these ingredients can add a bitter or sour flavor to that pure baby elixir that poured forth on our first day. But with consciousness and sometimes great effort we can change the course of our life’s recipe we can let the savory salty sweetness of life shine through, the sour and bitter inform but don’t overpower the broth. It seems to me that life is an accumulation of flavors and we are adding and adding with each day, somewhere along the way, a cooking down, a condensing begins. I’m not sure when this starts is at 50, 60 70? earlier? later? I suppose it’s different for each of us, but our soup of self begins to simmer.  And over the years we are cooked down, the volume reduced but the flavor enriched.  We boil and simmer and stew until another elixir emerges, related to that newborn broth but different. I saw this in my own two grandmas, very different women, very different pasts, and paths and choices unique.  One was sweet and creamy the other salty and often sour.  And as they aged (they each lived deep into their nineties) their broth of self cook down to a thick consommé. In the end the sweet was sweeter, settled and satisfied; the salty one struggled, the sour flavors adding fear and fretfulness to her later years. I want to acknowledge that dementia can be a cruel cook and one doesn’t always have control over the cooking process but I like to think, I want to hope that we have some choice, some power of selection, some jurisdiction over the recipe, how hot the flame, and vigorous the stirring. And so today, my 18,360th day of existence, I rededicate myself to the flavors of my purest self, my baby elixir, I pledge to added ingredients thoughtfully, stir gently, simmer slowly and let the recipe evolve as it will with each rotation of the earth each revolution around the sun.


11 responses

  1. Happy Happy Lisa! I will be 60 on Friday and my favorite is Eggs Benedict too!! Hugs,

    August 21, 2013 at 10:58 am

  2. Typed in the inspiration tag and came across this post..even if I’m a stranger passing by I just have to say Happy Birthday. So happy 51 wonderful years to you:)

    August 21, 2013 at 11:25 am

  3. Val

    Have a wonderfully happy birthday. Add some more flavor and keep cooking!

    August 21, 2013 at 11:37 am

  4. Jeanette Bernard

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY  Lisa,  …. Interesting thoughts.  I enjoy your talents and Gifts.  I shared with Tim, since you’re the same age and old friends.   Jeanette     


    August 21, 2013 at 1:18 pm

  5. Sandy Barra

    Very beautifully put! Happy fifty onderful birthday, my dear friend!

    August 21, 2013 at 4:03 pm

  6. Pat

    Well yes indeedy, i join you in wishing you a happy day and grand year! Love, Pat

    August 21, 2013 at 8:12 pm

  7. Mary Thorpe

    I have always loved being your Momma and am so happy we are able to be together on both special and ordinary days to share those hugs I cherish. Happy birthday.


    August 21, 2013 at 11:29 pm

  8. Diane

    What a lovely post, Lisa. Happy, happy birthday to you!

    August 22, 2013 at 10:07 am

  9. happy birthday Lisa, grateful to have you in my yoga class

    August 22, 2013 at 2:19 pm

  10. Anne R. Blanton

    Dear Lisa, Happy Birthday to you!!! Your words were sweet to ponder. Ahh yes, what life brings. I just got back from Norway. Twists and turns of traveling and very tired but knowing that when I recoup the memories will be rich. Praying the year will be full to the brim with unexpected joys! Love, anne

    September 7, 2013 at 4:41 pm

  11. Mary Anne

    I trust you enjoyed a wonderful 51st birthday. May you be abundantly blessed this year and all the years still to come!

    September 13, 2013 at 5:49 am

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